Anti-Ninja

The Silliest

Thu, 04 Sep 2008 13:12:55 GMT

Who am I, but the great pretender?
I make my way with words so tender.
Creating worlds to disguise my own.
Furtively concealing truth unbeknown.

A silly attraction rooted from desire.
Was anyone's guess what could transpire.
You had me choked up and so mesmerized.
Your features I almost memorized.

A reckless drive of my own devise.
You were hesitant but without compromise.
A knack of sensing, even the guise.
Without a word you made me think twice.

Dazed by your sudden affection,
My head is clouded with recollection.
You mirror me but I cannot fathom.
The misery echoed like a custom.

I need you beyond comprehension.
You wanted me out with compensation.
What else to do, how can we contend,
With a society compelling us to repent?

Shoddy

Sun, 13 Apr 2008 16:50:21 GMT

I could stare for you for hours.
But it just wouldn’t be right.
You might notice and start another fight.

I can be with you for hours straight and get sick of your laugh.
I’m just being silly.
When you’re gone, I’ll miss your laugh.

You’ve been gone an hour.
I’ve been missing you for 3.
Hope you’d come back so I could finally breathe.

This was an eventful year.

Sat, 29 Dec 2007 21:27:55 GMT

My LJ didn't stand witness. So,
New Years RESOLUTION #3 is write more on my LiveJournal.

Me and Eizel with her FISHEYE. Taken with my HOLGA 120 CFN. :)

The first two is nothing of interest. With that, I leave you. I'm going to Bangkok! Haha! So this would be my last post for this year. Hope everyone will have an awesome NEXT YEAR! No one get hurt that badly. Alrighty. BYE! <3

Waiting.

Sun, 23 Dec 2007 20:33:02 GMT

"So the day became one of waiting, which was, he knew a sin: moments were to be experienced; waiting was a sin against both the time that was still to come and the moments one was currently disregarding. Still he was waiting."
- Neverwhere, Neil Gaiman

Have you ever felt you've been waiting? Just waiting. For nothing in particular but you have this anticipation in your gut and you can't just explain the feeling out right.

For everything wrong I figured I've been waiting for something extremely right. Or not exactly right. Something incredible. Something life changing. Actually, anything to put my mind off the gutters. I've felt detached from my body. I know I'm moving. I'm talking. But something is wrong. Out of place. Myself just feels so far away - so distant. I knew myself. At least I thought I did. I was this kid. A brat more than anyone, but I was still just a kid. I was mighty. Indestructible. Or at least I healed up pretty decently. That was a million years ago. Lately I've made a lot of decisions that were... for lack of a better word, crappy. And I'm not healing. I can't anymore. I just try to cover it up. Ignore it for a while. Hoping desperately for it to disappear. It never does. It probably never will. But I still wait. For what? I don't know exactly but whatever that is I'm hoping it makes everything right again.

To write another day.

Sun, 18 Nov 2007 08:52:57 GMT

Ew. Eizel. Ew.

FREEWRITING! Ayoko na nga. You ruined me! Ruined! Haha!

Livid. Never lived it.

Sat, 17 Nov 2007 19:46:45 GMT

No more I-thinks and maybes. No more misconceptions or second-guessing. This is real. More real than anything I’ve ever known. I just wish it wasn’t. I wish it were just all in my head. Something I’ve conjured up from all the thinking I do. Even a big fat possibility would be better but not in any way the reality.

I woke up. I told myself to do it so many times in the past when I had these “moments”, but I never did. But this time - this time I actually did. Does this really mean I’ve finally given up?

A post after 132 weeks. Loser.

I blog elsewhere!

Wed, 04 May 2005 10:53:20 GMT

Check out my actual blog site! :D
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Thank you!